Monthly Archives: May 2009



My inner critic is a defense mechanism. Self-created. A shield to protect my optimism and hope and faith from a world that seems too cool to endure. Irony and insincerity rule the day, and made me ashamed of my own hopes–my own small voice.

Yet, the cruelty of the world is formed by a collection of inner critics–cynics, all fighting to “protect” ourselves. We mock those who dare to expose the soft underbelly of a nonsensical dream–those who are “off-beat” as a method of group control. “If I am not going to let my light shine, I will viciously attack anyone who dares operate from a place of freedom. If I can’t be different, you can’t be different either.” And, thus chastised by the group delusion, another poor soul adopts the mask of the cynic and trains their soft mouth into a sneer.

Yet the danger, the huge danger is that the mask is hard to remove. We start bringing our critical or cynical protection into areas that were formerly safe for us. Areas that were unpolluted. And suddenly the true self becomes harder to find. And the dreams seem more impossible than ever.

I am trying to be aware of the cynical voices in my life, including myself.


Marble Manicure Results


I recently discovered a new technique called marbling. It provides a really neat nail-art look  for those of us who aren’t quite as adept at maneuvering tiny brushes and dotting tools and all that rot. My pics turned out blurry (darn cell phone camera!), so I included a tutorial from Colette as well so you can see the full effect.

Just a few notes:

Colette uses an orange stick to play with the design. You can also use a toothpick or a pin, so you should be able to complete this manicure with your current stash and whatever tools you have laying around the house. It’s imperative to work quickly–the polish on the surface of the water will dry and not adhere to your nail if you go too slow. If it isn’t working try using slightly warmer or cooler water.

My colors:

Papier Mache (A white creme from Finger Paints)
Beautiful Girl (A bubble-gum pink creme from Sinful Colors)
Liquid Leather (A true black creme from China Glaze)

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Give it a try and let me know how your manicure turns out!

Disclaimer: I purchased all of these polishes myself and received no compensation for this post.